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askedtoforgivehi
helovedyou,adriennepleasedonteverforgetthatdespitetheshorttiyouspent,headoredyou,andierriblysorryforyourlosse,fallbackontheknoethingforyouthathedid
for,butbecauseofyou,ihechancetoget
toknoydad
iguesstryingtosayis,thankyou
rkflanner
andaloostdarkinthekit,aloneandafoldedtheletter,thinkingofpaulnoother,and,oddly,thinkingofbrent
assonyyearsagohootherhadbeen,theslesthataledalittleforced,theunexplainedtearsthattheydallassudhadsothingtodohtheirfather
and,throughitall,shehadsaidnothing
despitethefaandaexperiencedehonedifference
unlikeher,hertherhadntbeengiventhechancetosaygoodbye
utedsoundsofherdaughterssobs,adrienuedfrohe
anddeherandalookedupinsilence,hereyesfilledhunspokenanguish
adriennestoodoving,sinstinotheranddaughterstoodinthekite
eighteen
theairhadchilledslightly,andadriennehadlitafeandlightthespacesittingatthetable,shehadputrksletterbackintheboxandachedhersoberly,herhandsinherlap
“iorry,”shesaidquietly“foreverythingforlosingpaul,forhavingtolivethroughthataloneicantigineusthavebeenliketokeepallofthatinside”
“neithercani,”adriennesaid“theresnoadeithouthelp”
andashookherhead“butyoudid,”shewhispered
“no,”adriennesaid“isurvived,butididntdoitalone”
andalookedpuzzledadrienneofferedheralanile
“graa,”shefinallysaid“daddythatswhoi
criedeverydayfor,idontknoiwouldhavedone”
“but“andatrailedoff,andadrienneonforher
“butheuldntsayanything”adriennepaused“hedidnthaveto,helistened,andthatadethepaingoaedhergaze“youknohataswellasido”
andapressedherlipstogether“ie,”shesaid“beforenoean”
“becauseofbrent”
andanodded
“iknoetos”
foralongnt,andasaidnothing
“itisntfairyouandpaul,andbrent,”shewhispered
“no,itisnt”
“holikethat”adriennesledeisntthatoingsandtellselfthationlyhadtobestrongforonedayjustonedayididthatoverandover”
“youkeitsoundsosile,”andawhispered
“iteieverthrough”
“evenrethan”
“thatoo,butthis”adrienne
flashedaquieer“
andalookedaeethi”
“youinti,ianbaightnothaveyouillhopingthatyourdadandibacktogether”
andashandask
“youvelostalotinyourlife”
“yes,ihave”
“butyouseeohappynow”
“ia”
“hoanyoube”
adriennebroughtherhandstogether“ighthavebeen,ofurseitkessaditdidthen,anditstilldoesnoethingelse,too:ashardasitforanything”
shepaused,kingsureherdaughterunderstoodthat“inrksletter,hesaidthatisavedpaulfroielfbutifrkhadasked,iehadineverthiidoubtieverotherorgrandtheriao,iountknohatiobeokay,thatthings,thatno
tterakeitandtheyearethestrengthineededyes,i,butifsohoethistiknotogobeakethingsrighthadalandittoolate”
andalookedaaxandgregaswell
“thatsthebeginning,”adrienneportanthisrelationshipeantforrktoknoorehanyoualreadyhavenow”
adriennereaberthegoodnts,notthebadonesandaboveall,hetoknohatyouregoingtobeokay,too”
“iknohat”
adriennecutheroffhagentlesqueeze,notlettingherfinish“yourestrongerthanyouthinkyouare,”sheon,“butonlyifyoutobe”
“itsnotthateasy”
“ofurseitisnt,butyouhavetounderstandthatibr >
nottalkingaboutyouretionsth
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askedtoforgivehi
helovedyou,adriennepleasedonteverforgetthatdespitetheshorttiyouspent,headoredyou,andierriblysorryforyourlosse,fallbackontheknoethingforyouthathedid
for,butbecauseofyou,ihechancetoget
toknoydad
iguesstryingtosayis,thankyou
rkflanner
andaloostdarkinthekit,aloneandafoldedtheletter,thinkingofpaulnoother,and,oddly,thinkingofbrent
assonyyearsagohootherhadbeen,theslesthataledalittleforced,theunexplainedtearsthattheydallassudhadsothingtodohtheirfather
and,throughitall,shehadsaidnothing
despitethefaandaexperiencedehonedifference
unlikeher,hertherhadntbeengiventhechancetosaygoodbye
utedsoundsofherdaughterssobs,adrienuedfrohe
anddeherandalookedupinsilence,hereyesfilledhunspokenanguish
adriennestoodoving,sinstinotheranddaughterstoodinthekite
eighteen
theairhadchilledslightly,andadriennehadlitafeandlightthespacesittingatthetable,shehadputrksletterbackintheboxandachedhersoberly,herhandsinherlap
“iorry,”shesaidquietly“foreverythingforlosingpaul,forhavingtolivethroughthataloneicantigineusthavebeenliketokeepallofthatinside”
“neithercani,”adriennesaid“theresnoadeithouthelp”
andashookherhead“butyoudid,”shewhispered
“no,”adriennesaid“isurvived,butididntdoitalone”
andalookedpuzzledadrienneofferedheralanile
“graa,”shefinallysaid“daddythatswhoi
criedeverydayfor,idontknoiwouldhavedone”
“but“andatrailedoff,andadrienneonforher
“butheuldntsayanything”adriennepaused“hedidnthaveto,helistened,andthatadethepaingoaedhergaze“youknohataswellasido”
andapressedherlipstogether“ie,”shesaid“beforenoean”
“becauseofbrent”
andanodded
“iknoetos”
foralongnt,andasaidnothing
“itisntfairyouandpaul,andbrent,”shewhispered
“no,itisnt”
“holikethat”adriennesledeisntthatoingsandtellselfthationlyhadtobestrongforonedayjustonedayididthatoverandover”
“youkeitsoundsosile,”andawhispered
“iteieverthrough”
“evenrethan”
“thatoo,butthis”adrienne
flashedaquieer“
andalookedaeethi”
“youinti,ianbaightnothaveyouillhopingthatyourdadandibacktogether”
andashandask
“youvelostalotinyourlife”
“yes,ihave”
“butyouseeohappynow”
“ia”
“hoanyoube”
adriennebroughtherhandstogether“ighthavebeen,ofurseitkessaditdidthen,anditstilldoesnoethingelse,too:ashardasitforanything”
shepaused,kingsureherdaughterunderstoodthat“inrksletter,hesaidthatisavedpaulfroielfbutifrkhadasked,iehadineverthiidoubtieverotherorgrandtheriao,iountknohatiobeokay,thatthings,thatno
tterakeitandtheyearethestrengthineededyes,i,butifsohoethistiknotogobeakethingsrighthadalandittoolate”
andalookedaaxandgregaswell
“thatsthebeginning,”adrienneportanthisrelationshipeantforrktoknoorehanyoualreadyhavenow”
adriennereaberthegoodnts,notthebadonesandaboveall,hetoknohatyouregoingtobeokay,too”
“iknohat”
adriennecutheroffhagentlesqueeze,notlettingherfinish“yourestrongerthanyouthinkyouare,”sheon,“butonlyifyoutobe”
“itsnotthateasy”
“ofurseitisnt,butyouhavetounderstandthatibr >
nottalkingaboutyouretionsth
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